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Cheryl Hamilton | 10.08.06 | 09:07 PM |

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I have never blogged before. Not sure I have that much to share. At this time in my life I find myself in the middle of a transition. One that will hopefully lead me on an interesting journey. I am not working right now. It seems that the stress of my former job has finally brought me to a stop. I can no longer do the job and be "OK". So I am concentrating on persuing my interest in Reiki and becoming a Reiki Master. I just aquired my Reiki III on Labor Day weekend.
I have taken a month off, recovering from my job, alowing an injured hand to heal, and generally laying back. It is an interesting place to be. My world is changing, and I have no idea of how it will change. I have concerns that I need money to come in to pay some bills, but I am not really worried about it.
I really want some bodies to practice Reiki on, but they are not appearing for me at this time. I need to be doing what I want to be.
This transition started Jan. 2005, and has been creating an upheaval in my life ever since I decided to change what I wanted to do. How to make that happen started with visualizing what I wanted, and drawing pictures of me doing what I wanted, encluding taking care of my bills, car, house, etc. Within 2 mos. of looking at the pictures for a few min. every a.m. I found myself in a chaotic episode at my work place. I quit over the insident, tried other things, and ultimately went back to the company doing the same thing, but at a different unit. I transfered to my home town, and moved in with my Mom temorarily to pay off some credit cards that I had over used while trying other things to make a living. But the chaos grew worse after 7 mos. at the new unit. I began to have the feeling I needed to get out of this job because it was going to make me very sick if I didn't. I began to look for other work, less stressful, but before I found another job, I had a really bad anxiety attack at work. I could not function clearly at all. That was not good, as I have people's lives in my hands with what I do.
I do not know if I am "creating my day" very well at all. I do know that when you put intent behind your vision, you can start a change, but chaos can come to move the old out for the new to come in. There must need to be a space for things to move into. I don't think I am doing a very good job of creating, as everything is just outside my reach right now. I can feel it there, that is what is weird. I know it's there, but something is keeping it from manifesting into my reality.
Anyway, I can hardly wait to see what good comes out of this!!! It really should be interesting.
I haven't a clue what else to say, so maybe someone out there may have a comment about what it feels like to be in transition.
Cheryl

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Submitted by Angela Murphy on October 9, 2006 - 1:52pm.

Cheryl, this is also my first blog...you inspired me to write! Perhaps because I have had a similar experience in the midst of transition and can offer some hope.
For a couple of years I felt I was not working in the right place. Although I sent out a lot of resumes, I did not want to leave that job until I had something else, but eventually the stress created high blood pressure (in a body that had naturally low blood pressure all my life). I also did not like my tiny apartment in crowded Hollywood and searched for alternative living for years, but nothing materialized. I really wanted my life to be different at that time but in retrospect I realize I was trying to push my spiritual growth. I commend you for leaving work before you became very ill and moving in with your Mom!
The exercises you are doing with visualization and drawing pictures and affirmations (if you are doing those too) are all things I tried. But I think what created a turning point for me was reading a couple of books, "Excuse Me Your Life is Waiting" and "Ask and It Is Given" and watching the video "The Secret" in which they all discuss the Law of Attraction. Creating the feeling tone of already having what you want is more important than visualizing, which puts the energy outside of yourself and perpetuates keeping it outside of your experience.
I finally quit my job (as you did) without knowing what I would be doing, and gave notice at my apartment, without knowing where I would live. Every moment a concern over money or the fear of not finding something I wanted came into my awareness I immediately replaced the thought, not with a visualization, but with a feeling of excitement!
I imagined the joy I would feel doing exactly what I want to do, helping people in some way, and living in a great place. I generated that feeling for at least seven minutes (as recommended) and then let it go. The Universe responds to our willingness to accept, which can only happen in our release of the request.
I am so happy to tell you that it worked! I am now living in a place where I couldn't be happier and have a job that I love!
Allow yourself the time to go through what you are going through. I'm sure you will find very willing people to have Reiki practiced on them if you get the word out. And most importantly practice what it would feel like if you were just told that you got the perfect job. Or what it would feel like to have an abundance of Reiki clients.

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Submitted by Cheryl Hamilton on October 9, 2006 - 7:51pm.

Angela, thank you for your comments. I read the first two books you mentioned summer of 2005 when trying out other jobs. Never heard of The Secret.( I am A Course of Miracles girl, and I have just started Gary Renard's new book, Your Immortal Reality. It is great so far. I really loved his book, The Disappearance of the Universe.)
I know that things are going to change when situations are aligned to warrant everyone's highest good. The universe is set up to give us exactly what we want. We just don't know what we want in a conscious way. I have been working on being conscious of what I am creating. It takes some practice, since I have been unconscious for so long. And I am working on "Thy will be done, not my will be done."
I live in Wichita, Ks. and have hardly any friends, only a few aquaintences. Even tho I have family here, not all of my family is comfortable with allowing me to do Reiki on them. I am waiting for something to brew back in Tulsa, Ok. where I raised my kids. There may be a new job working for The Life Vessel that has recently been built there. It is cutting edge, energy medicine. The Life Vessel comes from a former NASA engineer. I hope to meet him on the 17th at a presentation of the Life Vessel. It uses light, sound, music, and vibrational frequencies to balance the autonomic nervous system. I really want to work there. I know this works, and I haven't even seen the whole presentation. I can see myself there working on releaving the cause of illness, instead of where I have come from, working with the symptoms of illness.
Well, enough. Thanks for the encouragement.
Cheryl

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Submitted by Angela Murphy on October 11, 2006 - 10:01am.

Cheryl, sounds like you're on the right path! You know what you want...that's the first step. I too have studied A Course In Miracles for many years. Here's the link to see a preview of The Secret, if you're interested: http://thesecret.tv
Had you considered going to convalescent centers to practice Reiki?
They may be very grateful for the energy!
peace,
Angela